syoknya!

sangat terusik dan sangat sangat kagum dengan Wardina,
dengan perubahan mendadak, dan determination dan kejituan azam yang sangat kukuh.
sangat kagum dengan cara mendidik anak-anaknya.
benda paling penting dididik, sehabis baik nak ikut sunnah, ajar solat dulu.
Have a read sharing beliau macam mana ajar anak solat kat sini.
Sangat terusik, and now, cerita pasal puasa.
Membuatkan otak berputar ligat merancang dan membayangkan,
how would I do as a parent? will I be as good as her?
can I be better? heh. bayangan masa depan yang terkadang membuatkan diri tak berpijak di bumi nyata.
Astaghfirullah.
Banyak khayal bulan puasa ni.

Tetapi, melihatkan abang kakak yang sedang membina famili,
dengan anak yang masih kecil, dengan dalam masa sebulan lagi insyaAllah akan bertambah seorang lagi anak saudara, I can't help but to think, how should I really do it,
and how can I help them with their kids, with my nephews?
Juga membayangkan how did I grew up.

Now, I came to realize that we learn quite a lot from our parents, the things that defines us now.
teringatkan Kung Fu Panda 2, which the message says that it doesn't matter how your past was, it's who choose to be now that makes you you.
well, maybe there's some truth in it, but I think it is inevitable that our past plays a big role in shaping who we are now, and by this I mean personality-wise, bukan berkaitan dengan macam mana kita hidup dengan Islam.
If a family doesn't really adhere to Islamic teachings, the children will need to make a change to it for his/her sake, juga for their parents' sake.
oh by the way, I'm not saying that my parents taught me bad or I'd love somebody else as my parents.
No no no. Jauh sekali dari situ. Saya percaya, everything Allah susun dengan sangat cantik,
and the me now is how they had taught me. It's up to me to make the necessary changes in my life, to my future, now that I know, now that I can understand.
Dan saya tak suka kalau ada statement macam "patutlah budak ni perangai macam ni.." bila tahu parents dia macam mana. seolah-olah putting the blame on the parents semata-mata. saya tak suka sebab saya tahu parents sangat susah nak besarkan anak masing-masing. terkadang, keadaan dan suasana yang membentuk macam mana yang kita nampak jadi sekarang ni.
That is what we definitely need to change now.

Melalut cerita tentang masa silam sendiri pula.
But yes, it circulate around the topic of parenting, and I think it is really important that we are aware of everything we do as parents, (my case, belum lagi lah), as sometimes the simple little things that we do gave the biggest impact on our children's way of thinking and living.

anyhow, I think Wardina makes a good model for moms-to-be yang kita boleh nampak dan cuba contohi.
of course, semua manusia ada flaws dia, dan in each and everyone yang kita kagumi pun, consider their strengths and weaknesses. not saying Wardina ni buruk or teruk perangainya, macam komen-komen kat video di YouTube yang menyakitkan hati (when will some Malaysians grow up =___=" ?), saya just nak highlight supaya tak ada isu fanatism atau terlalu memuja seseorang.

Wallahua'lam.

Salam Ramadhan,
with love,
~hS