Tuesday 4 June 2013

sugar

Bismillah ar Rahman ar Raheem

as a future doctor, I am often expected to be able to take care of the family medically, and the expectations kinda get at me sometimes.
every now and then when I'm at home, my usual role is to check my parents' BP and glucose level (we got a glucose monitoring kit at home).

just now my dad's glucose reading was really high. the highest so far. and really, he was quite alarmed, and asked me what level of glucose that he would need to take insulin. well, it's not about the level, it's about the control. if with oral antihyperglycaemic agent, the sugar is still constantly high, then insulin is the next step.

i know it must be tiring and annoying for him when I reprimand him about his sugar intake every now and then. being in an army, plus being genetically XY, you can't help but feel your ego being tarnished when you take orders from your underlings, and I kinda understand how it feels, and I feel bad about it but I just had to, because I love him.

right now, a pretty nice timing I must say, TV Al Hijrah is airing a medical related show about diabetes, and he's watching it. I can feel he is very worried about it. especially about the fact that he could go on insulin. the idea of needing a jab everyday is really unpleasant, and I have to say, it is one of the most common thing doctors say to scare patients to control their sugar intake, and for a good reason, really. another really worrying thing DM patients would dread to hear is about having to take dialysis. and true enough, I find it very sad when I see people needing dialysis, 3-4 times a week. it costs a lot, and it just drains your energy. it literally sucks your blood out of your system.

well, having nagged him about sugar intake, I should do so myself. I guess it's the stress, so I tend to crave for sugars myself, honestly. and really, I'm not good with disciplining myself. I got risk factors too. I'm gaining weight, and particularly my abdo is getting flabbier (central obesity is more worrying), and I got family history of it too, so yeah.. I ought to be very worried now. haihhh.. I should listen to myself talking about sugars.
Allah totally detest those believers who happen to say things, but they themselves don't walk the talk. that applies to me, now. *sigh*

I need to exercise!